Month: February 2021

So I think we all get bored very often, especially in quarantine when we are unmotivated and wanting the whole pandemic to end. Some things I do when I’m bored is play old flash-like games on my phone or computer, I listen to music (more in previous blog), or I draw (also in previous blogs).

I draw a lot of the time and I feel like even if I’m unmotivated, I can find something to work on drawing, shading, sketching objects, etc. I used to draw a lot of people, but I think I’ve kind of been avoiding them for a while and just drawing what I feel like at different times. When I draw people now, it’s usually actually a real person and way more realistic, unlike how I used to only draw fictional characters while trying to develop a style, and I feel like the more I do it, I improve not a lot because I’m pretty happy where I am, and I just revert to drawing objects and words in weird fonts, either on myself or in a sketchbook.

One thing I used to do that I hate now is only draw on printer paper that was pure white with no texture. At the start of the school year, I starting using a proper sketchbook and really have adapted to having paper in a way more convenient place other than just having random papers everywhere. I use mainly normal sized books, but for more space, I have bigger sketchbooks (1), too.

Something I do if I’m REALLY bored is just listen to a song and any words that interest me, I come up with something to draw from that. If a song mentions different objects or subjects, I usually draw those with context from the song. Usually the page I draw those on becomes just a random journal, like if you threw song lyrics onto paper in drawing form, but it’s kind of a really good “exercise” for me and I like to do it.

If I’m not motivated what-so-ever, I’ll usually just shade in random scratches into my sketchbook and have fun erasing them because I’m really weird like that. I’ll draw random, what I call, hair and erase that, too, and them get mad because I think I ruined the page because erasers never get rid of all the pencils marks and leaves a faded mark on the paper and now, in my mind, it’s ruined. This is a bad habit, but sometimes I’ll be so bored I tolerate it, but if I want to start fresh, I’ll just rip the page out and throw it away.

I also have bad habits of not using pencils consistantly and forgetting where they are, and them sharpening another one and using it, and repeating the process. I probably have 70+ used, sharpened pencils in my room alone, so that’s fun, I guess.

I usually like to listen to at least a few different genres of music at a time so I’m not obsessing over a specific band or singer all the time and listening to them on repeat 24/7, but I feel like that’s how most people are. I used to listen to country music a lot and some alternative pop, but now I barely do now (mostly country, I really love alternative pop still). I have a few favourite artists and bands that I’ve recently been playing on repeat over and over again with no real complaint, though, so I’m going to talk about them here.

1. Number one would probably be Melanie Martinez. I’ve been a fan of hers for almost a years and I really love the metaphors in her different music and how she observes different topics and even stuff that could be hard to talk about in general. She makes great music videos that are interesting with her characters and she recently put our a film in 2019. My favourite songs from her are probably “Mad Hatter”, “Notebook”, and “Nurse’s Office” (all from different albums).
2. Second is My Chemical Romance. I found their music because of my third favourite artist(s) last week, and I’ve been listening to them on repeat for the past few days. I think that since they’re such an old band (2007-ish) that they aren’t really relevant anymore, but I really don’t care because their music is really good. My top favourite songs currently are “Welcome To The Black Parade”, “Teenagers”, and “I’m Not Okay (I Promise)”.
3. My third favourite artists are Twenty One Pilots. I used to listen to them a bit (back in 2018-2019) and their songs like Ride, Heathens, and Stressed Out, but I think since I’m becoming a proper fan of them, I like some of their newer and older underrated songs more. As mentioned, they did get me into MCR specifically because they did a “Cancer” cover back in 2016 and I listened to it and got recommended a bunch of MCR stuff and now I listen to them a lot, too. My top songs from Twenty One Pilots are “Cut My Lip”, “Chlorine”, and “Level Of Concern”.

These are the people I listen to the most, but there are a bunch (barely 5) of miscellaneous songs that I like, too, such as “20 Dollar Nose Bleed”, “Spring Fever”, “Mama”, and I listen to different bands sometimes like Queen and Black Veil Brides.

https://pitchfork.com/features/lists-and-guides/best-songs-2020/

I like Valentine’s Day, especially when it’s on a school day. There’s lots of chocolate in stores and when you’re at school, the teachers are more chill and (if it wasn’t a pandemic) you can get candy a lot of the time.

In my school, we have (had) dances for a lot of the holidays, including Valentine’s day. The first proper dance I actually went to and had fun was a Valentine’s day dance and I spent the whole time with my friends and had a ton of fun. It was also the last dance I went to because it was in 2020 and now we’re here.

I think that the whole idea of Valentine’s day is very fun (I like the colours), but I’m literally one of the most un-romantic liking people I know, so it’s kind of just a fun little holiday for myself 🙂

Mental health is a big thing. It is very important, but sometimes, people can push it away as if it doesn’t matter. I went through an, as the internet calls it, “edgy teen phase”, and now when I look back, it was really stupid, but now I am way better in the self-confidence part and emotional part (I hope it doesn’t happen again). One thing I think a lot of parents or teachers neglect is feelings and differences, though. Teenagers go through a lot of phases sometimes, either trying to find their selves or fit in, which can be a very bad time for them with school and stress and friends and all that bogus.

One thing I think is very important is depression and anxiety. They have a lot of effects on all kinds of people physically and emotionally, so it can be very good if people going through that can tell someone and have a trusting person to express that to, because sometimes parents or adults in general can not really care about that, or do something for a little bit of time and then have it feel like neglect to a person’s situation.

I, personally, think it’s a thing lots of people need to be more open about and say that it’s ok to talk to someone because sometimes people can feel like people could push them away, when in reality, not a lot of people do that. A lot of other things are very important, too, but if you’re not in the right mental space, then it can be hard to focus or see that those things are important, too.