Month: April 2022

Whenever there’s weather, like rain or snow, I always associate something to that kind of weather. I don’t know why, but there’s just that feeling. Like if you listen to a specific song during a thunderstorm, that memory is kind of encapsulated by that feeling you had when you were listening to it. It can’t only be weather, it can be a time, a lighting, where you were, etc. I have this with a lot of things I listen to, or a drawing, or some thing else of that nature.

Recently we’ve been getting a lot of snow and the river has risen a lot. We’ve had to postpone our Easter supper at least 1,000 times because our relatives that live farther away are scared of lowland flooding. It’s kind of hectic. It almost May and we’re getting snow. Mother nature must hate us or something.

Other than that and me getting mad at the fact we’ll being have snow in August already, I think my favourite kind of weather is when it’s raining around mid-day. The ambience and just the general knowledge that it’s actually raining is very comforting. It has to only be rain, though. If it turns into a thunderstorm, I won’t like it at all.

I’ve had a massive irrational fear  of thunderstorms for about 4 years now. I don’t really know how it started; I used to love thunderstorms when I was younger. My entire family would be inside and I would want to be outside looking at the lightning. Now I’m the one that cowers in the basement if I hear even one thunder boom.

I don’t really go outside a lot, so I don’t really have much interaction with the weather. I don’t do a lot of activities and I never see the sun. Everyone after summer has nice tans and I walk into the classroom like a vampire or ghost. It’s kind of funny. Whenever I compare “tans” with people, I become a sheet of loose-leaf. My mom will have this golden colour and I’m just white. That’s literally the only way to describe my complexion.

I’m planning on going outside more this summer, though, so hopefully I won’t be as pasty as the previous 5 years or some. My mom bought us kayaks and I’m kind of scared to try them out with her. I haven’t been swimming in a while, and I’m sure if I fell out a boat or had to go swimming at any time for safety, I’d just drown. It’s been so long, I kind of forget if I can swim or not. Last I remember, I could, but now I’m kind of like “Ehhh..” whenever someone asks me if I can swim.

Other than that, I’m sure I’ll be fine.

Do you ever have this thing where you don’t know what the heck to wear or what style suits you?

I get this a lot and it can be kind of annoying. I don’t really know what style fits me or what I really like. Some days I like more “girlish” things and others I can be completely rock ‘n’ roll. Most of the time, I just wear things that I wouldn’t get judged in, when in reality, I would want to be wearing something completely different.

It can be kind of a hassle to keep telling yourself not to wear things you like, or realizing you don’t really look good in the things you like, and I think it’s more of a confidence issue for me. I also have very bad paranoia about everything, so I’m constantly thinking when shopping for or wearing something like “What will my mom think? What will my friends think?” and it’s a very bad habit to get into. Being self conscious about every little thing or thinking about what they’ll say when in reality, they could probably care less, is really a tough situation.

Whenever I’m home alone, I do the classic dress up thing because it’s when I feel most comfortable to wear whatever the heck I want to wear without judgment (except maybe from the cat).

I’m still trying to get out of the habit of what I think people will judge about me, so maybe I can update on this topic soon.

I recently had a revelation of what I really want to do when I grow up, or as a hobby, or just in general.

I recently started working on a comic “dub”, almost, and me and my friend are planning on working on it together and voice act in it. I think it’ll be really fun. I’ve always liked the idea of voice acting, or acting in general, and being able to make my own project and have the freedom to put anything I want into what I have a passion for, I think that’s really cool.

Also, my friend group came up with the idea for a band. I think it’s obvious from my previous blog posts that I love and want to be in a band. I choose the role of vocalist and bassist, and we put one of our other friend’s as the ominous stander.

We decided we should start out with covers of songs to get used to instruments and working together before we make our own original songs. We also need a band name, and we came up with some cool stage names. It’s been pretty cool.

As for my comic “dub”, I’m thinking about posting it as an actual story as well on a comic platform or a writing platform. Originally, I was going to do that, but my friend’s came up with the idea to voice act in it and post parts on YouTube. I’ll probably update on here when I start posting parts of it properly.